I hope your appointment this week is productive and helps lead you toward getting well and not crashing.

I have to commend you for not doing any of the risky activities often associated with mania like drugs or extramarital sex or massive spending or traveling to random places in the world or running away from your family. I know you said something about driving too fast so be careful about that one, but otherwise good for you for finding something neutral and not dangerous to focus on and sort of ground you.