It is hard and I have so isolated myself and let myself go. Sad part is I'm totally okay with it and I used to be such an outgoing people person. So that is why so many people don't "get it" with me. And I don't care to explain it them and make it look like I'm looking for sympathy or pity. People are taking it wrong and getting mad about it...and I don't care. Really don't want them to be mad but if they don't care enough to try to understand then I really have no room in my life for them. There's a counselor that looks promising here, but so did the other one. Not sure if it's worth the trouble and stress.