Your not a terrible person I know you cant see that right now, but you deserve happiness.

Can you get the self harm stuff outta reach? Do you have a T now? If so can you call them.. Maybe just a good rant session with a therapist will help knock the edge off this. Please stay safe. You deserve happiness... What your feeling? this is triggers, triggers making you believe the lies that Bipolar tells. Remember Bipolar lies ....it just does!!!

Stay safe