damaj,

It's really cool you've been more happy recently, I think I kind of know what you mean, since I've been in a similar place myself recently. What was happening, (still is I think), is that I'm now so aware of depression and its triggers and what it has the potential to do, so I was, I guess, thinking about them more. That, for me, triggered a relapse last week, and so I've made appt with T (which sucks cause I was damn sure I had won for once). The depression's lifted now, but that may be more because I just had my final exam of the semester today.

It could be meds, but I don't know much about them. I guess it could go either way for you, back into the clouds or back out into the sun. Maybe if you make a bit of a conscious effort to focus on the happy you can avoid the depression? I don't know, I feel kinda helpless at the moment, and it's hard/impossible to focus on the good when all you can see is the bad.

I hope things go back to being good for you :-)