(((((((((((((((((((((((Dee))))))))))))))))))))))

Take the guilt you are feeling and use it to become that wonderful person you want to be. The one that makes better choices for herself and her family. You have been given an opportunity to redeem yourself. The judge must have saw a quality in you, regardless of your disability that gave her hope that you could become a better person for what you have gone through and learned.

Things happen for a reason. I truly believe the reason is for you to be able to make a fresh start.

Do you have to be forethcoming in your alcohol counceling classes? It seems to me that you shouldn't have to say anything if you don't want to. Maybe you can tell the councelor if you see fit to, without telling the rest of the class?? If anyone asks you, you can always just say that you were very lucky and leave it at that. No need to go into details if it makes you uncomfortable.

I wish you much luck with this new lease on life. Use it to make everything count! Take good care

Hugsssss
J