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Originally Posted by cashart10
I promise I am not delusional. That is why I am so open with you all. Everyone irl life would think I am delusional; in fact, they already do. I thought my pdoc appt was this week but it's not until next week. I tried to call and move it up to this week but he said they are simply overbooked.  . If I start getting very paranoid, **** just goes to HELL! I see my therapist tomorrow and I will talk to her but I'm not sure what she will do. I feel like I am drowning. I am thinking that hypothetically God is letting this happen and what if I die? I'm afraid I am going to die. I know how conservative my pdoc is about the hospital and he will say I don't need to go and I don't want to go. I know it won't help. Maybe bricks on my chest will help. Maybe it will weigh me down to reality. I would look pretty stupid laying down with bricks on my chest though. |
I'm sorry you can't move your appt up. Bricks might help actually. We use a weighted blanket for the elementary kids at school when they freak out to help them feel secure. I wouldn't put too many bricks on though lol. It doesn't matter how stupid you look if it helps. Maybe instead of bricks wrap yourself really tightly in a blanket or sheet. Still get that security and reality sense.
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