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Old May 18, 2015, 09:43 PM
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Originally Posted by ~Christina View Post
If YOU think you need IP then YOU need IP . You don't need your Pdocs approval to go in. The ER can navigate you into a hospital. I know that you are hopping back and forth..

One minute your saying your fine the next you are coming unglued.. Your all over the place, I just reread the last 8-10 pages of this post... I hope your able to stay safe. Yes I am shutting up now.
I don't believe I need the hospital right now. I am not sure they will take me anyway even if I am acutely manic because I am not a danger to myself or anyone else. Thank you though.

I reread the same 8 pages and I don't understand myself to be all over the place. I feel manic and unfortunately am experiencing some serious panic and sudden paranoia. I think I will be fine. I think the negativity will subside and I will be well.

As always, thank you for your concern! If you are shutting up because you think I'm not listening, I'm sorry! I do listen though, I just struggle with following through. If you are shutting up because you think you are saying too much, well that is definitely not the case. I am lost and blind and struggling, even in my elation there is darkness. I have no idea what I want, I just know I can't be trusted in my own head. That is why I spit out so many words here.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

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