Just venting, idk how to make a blog on here. I've been falling into delusions again for the past year or so, but I'm trying to keep my delusions/reality apart, because in the past when my brain tripped out I didn't know I was delusional, so I'd talk about it like it was normal...pshh bad mistake lol. Anyway, so I'm having these delusions over cyber space, because coincidence after coincidence keep occuring, but my delusions are triggering paranoia, because I feel like I might have a brother I didn't know about. I had this delusion before so (so unrealistic) but so much coincidence.. anyway it's triggering paranoia in my mind that my dads side of the family thinks I'm planning against them and once again I feel like there's a big conspiracy going on that because of that they're attacking me. It's probably all in my head, but I don't wanna tell my fam because I seem crazy enough and saying anything never does any good. I only have contact with my dads side online, so Idk how to talk to them and not feel like I'm being attacked, or feel like they think I'm planning against them. I know I'm delusional, and I'm in a 50/50 state of mind whether anything of this is real or not, but I don't want to bring it into reality or tell anyone cuz that's just embarrassing, I'm even embarrassed to tell my psych, but I have a cheap government funded psych anyway, so I don't think it would do any good. Anyway just venting.