freewill,

I can feel you grieving. And you are not alone with that. I can feel your confusion. You are not alone with that either. But I would like to say that when you have grieved and slept and finally uncurled, you have a lot to contribute to this world -- and you already have. Here, you have offered your heartfelt empathy to others who share your past and your pain. Here, you have made sure that others do not feel alone. These things that you have already done, have contributed to this world. Abusers may have beaten us down, but that cannot kill our inherent beauty. Yours has been showing through here. And that beauty has been encouraging to me.

Feel better,

mtd