I'm sure you guys are sick of seeing a lot of "newbies" pop in the forums to ask a few questions and then leave a week or so later. While I did come here to ask for some insight, I don't plan on leaving very soon as psychology interests me very much. (Hopefully it's imied at this point that I am in fact new and this is my first post)
I really don't know much about mental health at all but I am beginning to become increasingly more concerned with my own. Hopefully what I'm about to describe won't scary anyone or mark me up as crazy or something but I think I may be experiencing some form of auditory hallucinations of sorts. I don't know how to describe the feelings associated with the experiences but I can recall a specific account from today that made me turn to you guys:
I was standing in the hallway when I heard the voices of several of my peers, I had my back turned to where I perceived them to be and I heard them saying really nasty things about me. At first I chalked it up as chiish gossip... But then the "peers" Began discussing things that NO ONE knows about me. I turned around and only two of the people who's voices I heard were even in the vicinity.
I know this may be easily dismissed as a fluke but this happens daily. Accompanied with an overwhelming fear that I'm being made fun of or watched or stared at or left out or hated EVERYWHERE I go. This is something that's been going on for a couple years now but it's getting pretty dehabilitating as its causing some pretty gnarly insecurities that are preventing me from hanging out with people and talking at social gatherings. Any thoughts or observations? I guess I am here on this forum because I know it's easier to observe a situation rationally from the outside (that's you guys).
Thanks for your time,
Mectriste
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