I feel that depression and anxiety has infected every part of my life. I don't think I was always like this or perhaps I was just more resilient when I was younger. Still, I feel that I am now in an all out war with something that is threatening to overwhelm me.
There is a monument on our town town that honors those who have fallen in war. It states "Eternal vigilance is the price of peace." I feel that now applies to me. If I am not actively working to decrease my stressors and avoid events that trigger negative thoughts, if I am not quick to recognize and counter my negative thoughts, my fear and anxiety rise to overwhelm me. I do realize that depression follows the fear and anxiety. I think my depression is my response to my inability to keep my fear and anxiety at bay.
When I do write in my journal, take time to breathe, hit the gym, I do get a bit of respite. I just need to string enough of these times/actions together in my day to make it safely through. I need to be constantly working on a balanced mind and a calm heart. Eternal vigilance.
If one is being vigilant, one is not necessarily at peace. Still, it beats the alternative.
I have just begun posting to this forum but am finding it very helpful. Thank you.