I've been in therapy many years, and my t has never indicated that I have DID. She has used IFS with me before and has stated that everybody has "parts." On the other hand, she asks to speak to specific parts, and she also tries to encourage me to develop "better internal communication" between parts. She said I definitely have dissociative problems, but has chalked it up to C-PTSD (I also have GAD and BPD). I guess I'm beginning to wonder if she does indeed think I have DID. She said she has seen me switch from one part to another part in therapy and has also heard different parts on phone messages speak differently. She has also asked me to draw a map of my system parts.

Is this normal for a t to do with a BPD or PTSD patient? Or does it sound like I have DDNOS or DID?

I have never lost time, in the sense of suddenly becoming aware and not knowing where I am, etc. But my memory is awful. I forget to do things regularly, or do things I don't remember doing. Usually not major things, but enough that it is definitely not normal. I also fail to recognize things visually that most people do (looking for something right in front of me but can't find 9it, get accused of not saying hello or waving to people I don't remember running into, etc.).

Also, I regularly think and feel very differently and have much internal conflict. I experienced some SA as a child, although not severe. However, I endured much emotional and psychological abuse from my father. I have frequent nightmares where I wake up drenched in sweat. Occasionally after a nightmare, I notice bruises on my thigh that I don't recall getting - think it must happen during the nightmare. What I would consider my two main parts are the normal adult me who works full-time and carries out normal activities - and who is very capable of putting on that professional face - and what feels like a very young, terrified, small child who is in danger and desperately needs a parent to protect her. This small part comes out when something happens to trigger her.

Not sure what else to say. . .just trying to figure out if I have DID or not. Any thoughts?