I didn't go to school. I can't concentrate when there's so much of a lack communication with me and the outside world by going to a police station and telling them. I really don't care right now. They can all die of crack OD. Not my problem. If someone wants to do crack, it's their decision but ya I agree.. Not in a * psychiatric hospital.

If I want to do it my way, by slapping on a dose of all of my meds and it works, leave me be.. Therapy doesn't work for psychosis. I tried. It was like talking to someone in a different language. It's a disease and neither does psychiatry in how my first psychiatrist just didn't mention anything and let me go 3 months didn't check my weight because he'd be observing 6 months then and have control and power to say "You have an eating disorder" if I lost weight. No I do not I don't .. What?? It's either his way or the highway. I don't like asking for pills for my illness. It's humiliating. Especially when they say no.. Then I feel helpless. Respecting myself would be to just not take them. But I'll wait to see my new psychiatrist.

Everyone is trying to outsmart me to have control because I can't put my thoughts together anymore. I don't feel like arguing because it's not aknowledged and unfair. I'm nice to people and I won't change that but the hospital was overload.

I will stop my meds later in time because all of that Klonopin worked like a catalyst and BOOM, I'm off the rails. Maybe that's what I ment by telling my therapist about being tide to light posts and rail grids with my body parts falling off .. Idk I'd be way behind in the class for "The disturbed children" idk I forget the name newtus

I'm going to spend a few days working on my mental health and explaining to people what is actually happening in my head when I'm trying to explain something. It could be OCD where I worry about yknow what screw this when I'm forced to take a shower and take medications me what ever I only have a slight .. Wow .. I got lost in a sentence that I was using to explain the previous.

Idk what I wrote because my iPhone is glitching.