thank you,i'm actually happy to hear i'm not alone-though i heard some people thought like me, i kept thinking 'what's it like to be "normal"/ (even though there is no real "normal..") does everyone worry about these things /what is it like to be comfortable with how you look? etc. i've tried the "self-esteem boosting tips" and none of them ever really changed what i felt, but your advice is helpful, i'll definitely try to focus on the good things i can find...thank you so much for all the help