I had a tiresome few days, had a night-shift and a very long day in the practicum where I had to see 3 patients of mine one after the other which was HARD, I have forgotten that I scheduled them in such way.

Last patient was very agitated and exhausted projecting his exhaustion to me, in the end of the session I had a severe headache but I worked it through and wrote a Vignette of the session so I could work on it with my mentoring social worker.

Despite all that I still going and going with tasks and functioning somewhat Above-My-Average, my creativity was shining and even my mentor noted it and co-workers said they sense something positive in my presence.

Driving back home I was thinking maybe I'm just happy ...
Maybe things have changed and I'm just happy and I'm never gonna get the blues again??
I came home, ate something and just crashed into bed ~ I thought I'm gonna sleep forever.
But hey I slept for 2 hours, walked my dog, did some exercise instead of running because my knees still hurt from the last run where I went 2.5km over what I should have. I'm gonna try to get some sleep but I'm not sure I can.
Honestly, I'd drive and go to the sea with someone but nobody is up for that ...

Yesterday I had a meeting scheduled with a professor who teaches Qualitative Research Methodology, and I had nothing prepared for the meeting which is intended to provide me some guideline for further work.
So day before that I was struggling to get myself on the task just to prepare some questions, when I eventually forced myself ~ I found myself digging hours into the subject and I ended up meeting with him for 40minutes~ instead of brief 15minutes and he said that my ideas for the research are very creative and fascinating but they're too big (grandiose??) and are not for a Mini-research that is meant just for having the feel of qualitative research, what I want is a research for 1-2 years at least and at least for M.A thesis or PhD .. was he saying that just to not leaving my with a sense of "get back to earth u crazy little 2nd year student" or .. ?
Anyway I was ecstatic that he said it is a good idea for PhD, acknowledging my 'good-work' and ambition, delighting.


P.S - Is that okay or unusual that I post here as a way of keeping kind-of-a-journal ?

I haven't said I'm sorry for the grammar mistakes I may have repeatedly done, workin' on it (I'm an Israeli after all..) :-)