Hi Secret. Is there some emergency hotline to call or hospital to go to if this gets too bad? Oh, and by the way, I am someone who truly cares about you. I know I am not a person IRL, but I do care. You are such a good, kind person. You are important more than you know. So do take care of yourself and stay safe. Having something important to do this weekend is good because that gives you something to focus on maybe to take your mind off other things. I understand how you are feeling because I am having similar feelings myself. Please do stay safe.