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Old May 19, 2015, 06:29 PM
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I'm sorry. I'm sure you wanted him to prove himself. I am glad he cut the AD but I really wish he'd cut the vynase or given you something calming. I don't think the song thing is weird, I just think it is symptomatic and probably just a normal part of you that has grown into something bigger while you are manic.

It happens in so many ways. I'm usually not an impulsive spender but I spent hours the other night trying to figure out how to tweak my budget to allow me to buy $45 of nail wraps......and I only ever do my toenails, making that a HUGE amount of wraps, especially since my ability to wear anything but sneakers until next summer when my ankle is more healed from my reconstruction surgery. I think $45 of wraps that nobody could see would be a waste but I was totally fixated on it. In fact I have to re-do my budget to put that money back on bills where it belongs. When mania strikes it makes no sense whatsoever sometimes but when it hits something a lot closer to home than my ridiculous must have lovely hidden toenails (like your music) it's just a lot harder to figure out where baseline is and where the excess of mania has taken over.

This disease is just not pretty. I have GERD and it is increased by my Seroquel dose. Last year I had trouble and my nexium dose was increased to twice a day. Now I'm having issues again and I know there isn't any other med that can help and I don't want to be referred to a GI dr for a scope when I know what the problem is. So complaining about this to someone yesterday led to hearing about an OTC natural thing that is not very good tasting but it helped immediately. If only bipolar was so easy.....I'd drink a lot more of a nasty liquid than I am for the GI issue if it would only make the bipolar disappear.
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Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
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