I take 1500 (3/3, sometimes 2/2/2) and I tolerate it well. It helps me control my anger and outbursts. When I'm off it, I get edgy. I have no physical side effects other than some lethargy.
A "fun" side effect - it makes me sort of goofy but in a calm way. I went off my meds last week because I got lazy on my refill and my wife noticed a difference. Sometimes, the key is asking other people how we're doing. My wife likes the laid back, goofy me. I'm much more predictable. Before Depakote, I was tough to manage.
On a more serious note, I am becoming more forgetful but I think that's probably a good thing because even though I never used to miss a trick, I was so edgy because I was always "on". It helps me have a "who gives a bleep" approach to work. I still do my job well but I de-emphasize it more and don't worry that I have to work "extra" to keep my job. That's been the Great American Scam from Day 1.
As I mentioned, another side effect is that it makes me tired but I'm trying to fight through that one and get to the gym.
Depakote does a good job for me with my paranoia as well. When my mood is even, my mind races less. I used to think I was getting fired or people were poisoning my water bottle. And while my hypomania is settling down, I don't think Depakote addresses my depressive side. I'm trying to manage that without medication right now......we'll see how that one goes.
IMO, everything is a risk. Yes, there are side effects, but I eat too much grilled steak so who knows? What works for one person may not work for another. We all have different natural chemistries.
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