I've done the same thing. I've looked at the suicide prevention pages and wondered if I'd really call... And I've wondered who really does call. I know the elderly are very vulnerable and would probably call... Then the webpages look dated and then I wonder if the people who wrote all of that ever update anything or is it just like a bumper sticker in the middle of the internets... So yes, knowing that there is content out there is weirdly comforting. The actual reality of an attempt is very sad though, not recommended!