Thank you, for your messages.
Its difficult because I normally have a phobia of women particularly in any sort of power, so to start with I really struggled with this with her but I have done some mindfulness based therapy with her and it is odd to say but I do really trust her. she said she senses I have issues being watched, I want to get over this but I guess it will come with time. I try to be kind to my child self but I do sometimes find it hard, so maybe it is me that I don't trust. I need to keep working on it, thank you