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Old May 20, 2015, 08:42 AM
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Originally Posted by Angelique67 View Post
Thank you! I'm so afraid all the time. I just don't know if I'm ever going to come back to myself. And I'm getting very old waiting.
You're welcome. I wish I knew what to say that would help. I know benzo withdrawal is hell, I forgot a dose just once sometime last summer and the next day I was violently physically ill and psychotic as hell. It was awful, I'm hesitant to even start tapering because I know I'll get withdrawal symptoms even if I taper as safely as possible. I could punch that doctor who put me on this stuff in this first place. I hate it, I hate how it makes me feel but god ****ing forbid I just stop taking it because now I have this physical dependence that I didn't know would happen when I started taking this ****. Nobody told me how physically addicting benzos are, I didn't even know what benzos were when I first started taking Klonopin. It makes me so furious when I think about it. Just UGH. **** this.

You have my sympathies, seriously.

I'm planning to start tapering this summer so I'll likely be a mess.
Thanks for this!
Angelique67