I have a week off next week and she said we probably need to take things slower, in the meantime I need to practice telling both my child and adult self that things are ok, I'm safe and can trust myself and to try and be kind to my child self. I'm just wanting to give myself the best chance possible that's why I was wondering how other people do this. I'm so thankful for the replies I have had, doesn't make me feel quite so alone in this.