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Originally Posted by Angelique67
I was on benzos for 30 years and in the past 10 years I got on horribly high doses, like 17 mgs/day of Klonopin (don't ask!) but I worked it down to 4 mg/day on my own. I was on 4 mg/day when that NP decided she wasn't going to write it anymore. She wrote drug seeking behavior on my chart so no one would prescribe for me. It was after I said I was hoping to get a car - I think she thought I'd have a wreck because of the Klonopin and vicodin but I wasn't taking much vicodin and I was adjusted to what I was taking and not "out of it". I drove fine on Klonopin. It's now that I'm useless. The changes in my brain function are profound and I'm useless now.
She didn't know about my history with benzos because I hadn't been in this area long. I really wish her bad things.
After she decided she was ending the Klonopin she brought it down to 2.5 mg/day, and then just stopped and left me high and dry to die.
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Oh my GOD, wow that is quite a story. I've never been above 4mg of it thank god but still, that is what I'm taking now and I know from missing that one dose last year that I
will go into acute withdrawal if I stop taking it abruptly.
I've tried cutting my dose in half before... turned me into a psychotic insomniac... well, more of a psychotic insomniac,.heh, but still it ****ing sucked and I didn't realize it was withdrawal until I took the other 2 mg because I was desperate for sleep. Yeah, benzo withdrawal is no ****ing joke.
I'm so sorry this happened to you, frankly I had a horrific NP from 2010 until early 2013 and she's the one responsible for getting me hooked on a higher dose of Klonopin(I used to only take 1 mg). She was an idiot, decided that giving me benzos would make me sleep when well they don't because I have a tolerance for them now and benzos should be a
last resort for a patient who can't sleep. There's so many other things someone can prescribe someone for sleep other than drugs that are so addicting and dangerous! But at the time I didn't know how dangerous this stuff is. All the stuff I know about medications now is from doing extensive research in the past couple of years. Ugh... I hate that NP's, pdocs, etc don't ****ing TELL you how dangerous these meds are!
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Originally Posted by newtus
how are you feeling atypical?
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I'm doing well mentally for the most part, even if a bit wrung out and ticked off. I have a bad cold, due to allergies and the air quality being absolute **** over here like it always is in May. I got diagnosed with fibromyalgia on Monday and while I'm glad I know now what the hell has been going on with me physically, I'm not happy about this at all obviously... I'm really angry, actually. Thanks for asking how I'm doing, that's really kind.
