Hi Rycoon,
First you had some real structure in the outpatient program I am sure. So the structure being gone may be part of it. Sounds like you are going to be doing things for the summer and that is great but you may have to much empty time right now which allows you to do a lot of thinking. Two things as someone above said sometimes it is not the right medicine or combination of medicines or maybe it just needs some more time to work. Medicines are tricky they usually take along time to get right and when your body gets to used to them usually you have to try something else. Hang in there I know it is tough I have been in shoes before. Biggest thing I see is that you are fixate upon one plan in my opinion this is very important to let your therapist know so he/she can work with you. Being a mom myself I do understand how your mom is scared but I think if you give her some assurances of why it would be better to stay at the college you are that could go along way. Please keep in contact with us... Take care