How do I separate from all of this? I am trying to find a balance.

I have been in therapy for years and prior to that studied Social Work and prior to that always knew I was a bit "off" or needy. Mom was a psychiatrist that started training in my adolescence. The house was a petrie dish.

Now I feel almost engulfed by it all and yet like a moth to fire I keep coming here and keep going to therapy (yes still needed right now).

I am a single gal, no kids, middle aged and wishing to even out a bit. It is hard. How to balance some of this....I do not know as I have been doing this so long. I am anxious right now and need to release and change.

It is a loss and an obsession. How do I fill it. And no I do not know what I want to do.