I know I probably should reach out for help....but...I wanna just try to ride this out on my own. I'm not keen on my care coordinator, she actually phoned me up on Monday but I made out like everything was fine. Maybe a mistake in hindsight. But I'm definitely not willing to have the crisis team come out. If I just keep on reminding myself that there is stuff I want to do this weekend, stuff I need to be here for, then maybe I can stop myself doing anything stupid.

It's hard. I'm not gonna lie.