Thank you for all these replies. It means a lot

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Yeah I know people say that 'beauty comes from the inside' but when a person first sees you what do they see? They see you and make judgements off of your appearance. Because of this I don't even like to go infront of people; I don't like being the center of attention - I don't like people seeing me. It really makes me feel hopeless that I really am stuck the way I am.

@goodnessgracious - Yes, I've heard about the same thing as well. My sister works at a bank and she said her manager gives interviews right away to those people that she deems attractive. My sister also said that when she finds another job she'll refer me to her manager but because of what my sister told me, I don't want that position anymore. My family is full of gorgeous people (some of whom are models) and then there's me who isn't the least bit pretty. I feel like if I go in, the manager will be dissapointed in how I look and it will be shameful for not only my sister but for my whole entire family. It makes me feel hopeless that I won't be able to find a job just because of how I look.

You also mentioned confidence and personality. People say they like my personality because they say I'm funny but I'm very introverted and shy. I can't really be a very confident person because right when I try to crawl out of my shell I get scared and want to go back. I'm just so intimidated by judgement it impacts my decisions a lot.

PinkMoon - Maybe I should see my friend I don't know. What I do know about her though is that she is really centered around people's 'attractiveness' and she sometimes goes on and on about it (a little shallow, though I'm not trying to be mean). As Dan208 said, I feel shot down. I can't even take pictures of myself so she doesn't even know how I look like. I feel like she has a high standard of me that when she sees me she is going to be greatly dissapointed because I won't meet her expectations. I'm very conflicted.

Thunder Bow - Maybe it is Social Anxiety I'm not too sure but whatever it is, it's directly related to my self esteem.