cash - Please go inpatient. Do it before you end up involuntary. During my last episode I tried so hard to focus, but in the end I just lost it. Everyone hates the hospital. But they'll be able to adjust your meds, get you feeling better a lot faster. Sometimes we just need to go because everything becomes too much, intolerable, living nightmare. I wish I would have just gone voluntarily, but I was so stubborn. It would have avoided a lot of unnecesary drama (and extra medical bills for that matter).