I am just feeling so down yet flat..... I'm irritable but numb, everything annoys me, yet I am apathetic and just switch off to enable me to function. I have had reoccurring thoughts of My husband is I'll and needs caring for, meaning I am working, doing childcare, caring all whilst suffering severe depression. Just because I HAVE to cope doesn't mean I am ......yet if I was to give up fighting my daughter loses out and that makes me a gigantic failure. I am stuck in a mental and emotional straight jacket and its driving me crazy.......
Sorry to vent but I feel I am about to explode......
I have been emailing the Samaritans but the last few replyz have felt quite glib......
It feels like I am standing in circle with people one by one turning their back on me repeatedly saying...' Deal with it loser.....'get a grip......don't be so pathetic........'.
Do I have to something so incredibly drastic in order to be taken seriously??????????

Tolerance limit almost reached!!!!!!!