VBAC After 2 or More Cesareans

I am uncertain why it's through this site name, however, this is what I found after searching vbac after 2 cesareans.

Somewhere in all this, is mention to learn to let go, if things don't go as planned.
I'm unsure, myself, if not societal influence/pressure, nor the pain to prove the toughness of motherhood, which I read too often, upon making my first birthing plan, why a csection delivery evokes such feelings of failure?
I discovered of myself, that I'm on the quiet side in labor. Got an internal laugh when the nurse said I wasn't pushing right and I told her something didn't feel right, as if a first timer would know that. Yep...
There's a lot that goes into these experiences, is it possible you've sensitivity to others around you? There is such thing as others giving off a judging demeanor...the night nurse brought the equipment in so loudly during the middle of the night, my husband was there I overnight..the discharge was even humiliating when i was given the no intimacy instructions looking at me and my husband's adult nephew who was driving us home. Brought my baby upstairs, climbed into bed and just sobbed my heart out, happy to be home...