Thanks for the encouragement, Iguanadon. It means a lot.

Two days down with the PHP program. It's hard. Even on an adjusted meal plan (which they give you the first few days), I'm struggling with the feelings of fullness and uncomfortableness. I'm kinda in a tough place right now because I don't know how long I'll be able to stay here. I'm afraid of letting everything go and be raw in programing just to have it ripped away from me and me to be left trying to deal with the pieces all alone.