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I am so so sorry about your brother-in-law. The pain must be excruciating for you, especially as the family "conscience." The one who feels for all. I have that role also.

As for the rest, I think you hit the nail on the head when you said your home life was a petrie dish. That sounds conflicting.

I vote for what Mouse said, having therapy and having a life outside. That's what the rest of us do. In your case, your outside life means being involved with the psychiatric community somehow because it feels comfortable, like home? Is that really a bad thing?

But with so much stress on the family front maybe now's not the time for a big change...hang in here for now so we can support you.

Anway, there's my 2 cents.

Take gentle, gentle care right now.