((((((SecretWhisper)))))) Please be good to yourself. I completely understand about the crisis team, last time I insisted on going to them rather than have them come to me. That way I could fit them around the stuff I needed to do. My care coordinator has cancelled on me, I left her a vague message about needing help but she didn't reply and now it will be three weeks before I see her. Please PM me if you think it could help, but I'm not sure we'd be good for each other given our respective states of mind. Take care and I hope you enjoy the things you have planned