Hi Friend

I am able to understand your suffering. It's always been ridiculed that people try stupid things to draw attention. Why is that people can't understand our pain unless we attempt something drastic. you have come to this forum so that you can express your anguish and ventilate. we will all do our best to comfort you. first thing is to stay calm and accept that things are too much to handle. life's commitments has stressed you beyond your limits. so try starting to reduce your work load. spend time with nature.