I'm sorry that the experience of comfort for the Baby led to self-harm. Would you say that the problem is due to a conflict between the Baby needing nurturing and comfort, and the other protective part of you trying to prevent it for some reason?

I ask because I have a protective part that routinely tries to "undo" any comfort the small child part of me gets, either by taking the child away from work in therapy, or by mocking the child for being such a big baby and needing comfort.