Sorry I hadnt responded yet. Dr. thinks i just tore a blood vessle in my esophogus (which of course could get worse to a full blown tear in the whole thing if i keep purging, lecture, lecture, lecture). She gave me some meds to help, and I'm trying hard not too. It was just bad timign, b/c I've been going through the deepest depression lately and dealing with things that are hard. oh well. ma ybe this is to kick me through this. I've never seen death so close (not cuz of the tear) just it adding to my lack of desire to breath anymore. I feel a bit better today after a long cry though. Thanks for the support you all !