pretty sure if you stab someone with a knife for bumping into you on the street you'll be spending the rest of your life in jail or in a hospital for people who are a danger to others
i'm sure these feel like direct attacks but perhaps you're the one who needs to act like an adult here. you said it yourself, you're an old person. so act like it.
maybe some people will side with you but pretty sure if you stab a woman and then tell people "women are undeserving of special status" you'll to jail for assault because you're a misogynist
perhaps they'll care that it comes from trauma and abuse from your mom but as you said, you're an adult, they're not gonna care about your "excuses"
so act your age and take control or your life. stop being controlled by your mother. stop being controlled by people on the street. go change yourself because no one in the world is gonna change for you.