I'm 17 and this is abosolutely driving me insane. Along with my depression,and sexual confusion I have these visions, these feelings that are terrible. Every night befoe bed I cry, but its not because normal sadness always, sometimes I see visions of what I hear coming true for me almost getting ready for something before it happens, but I'm not making myself am I? When I go to bed I lye down and try to think of a positive future generally the next day, I'm a thinker so bed time is nice a quite time for that but as of late its gone far to far. I'll visualize having a wife, a daughter, a life just like I want, then breaking down and it all leaves me, I'm not really awake I'm kinda dreaming an illusion of fear....last night something happened to me that made me cry very much but happy too....

I first want to say this is hard to say just because I know it wasn't real. Last night I couldn't sleep inventually I fel in a state of sleeping,dreaming, and being awake. I was lyeing on the couch in this dream and a young women slightly older then me gently rubed my forhead as I cried, just like my mom, she kept saying shhh softly, saying it'd be ok......she was beauitful and fritening....also she was fake....that image hurt so bad after wards....I'm so crazy.