I felt a little bit disingenuous, even though I wasn't exactly "dishonest" with her, but mostly I just said I felt like I needed some space from therapy for a bit and to process things with former T and work through that relationship before starting a new one, and maybe I'm at my saturation point with therapy right now. She said to go with my gut and she thinks that's a good plan for me, but her door is open if I want to come back. Easy as that. I felt a bit bad about it, but I think it was the right thing for me. And she was really supportive of my decision...so maybe this will be a good thing and I will have some space to resolve stuff and finish off well with old T before rushing into a new therapeutic relationship, whether with this T or someone else. Maybe I can just focus on right now and whatever happens in the future will happen when it happens...