Hi ! I read your post, and it really breaks my heart that you
have gone through so much and no one , but your Dad
understood and loved you. I hope this brings some of kind
of happy memories of your Dad. As, for everybody else in
your family, I really think you should avoid them, because
who are they to judge, what you are going through. A lot of
people don't understand , what depression is. Even Tom
Cruise ( he's a jerk in my mind) thinks that depression
doesn't exist. Or any other kind of mental illness.
Remember you do have friends here, so please take care
of yourself. Good luck and I wish the very best for you.