Losing a job is never fun. I lost so many jobs when I was young that others thought I had a real problem. Of course only I knew it was because of seedy bosses who insisted I put out or leave

I always left. But I'm telling you... a new job every 2 or 3 months was NO fun. Plus there was no way I was going to broadcast the reasons.
Please, please try and see this as a chance to begin anew. I mean, no it isn't fun, and yes, it might be easier to have stayed there if you could...but you don't have that opportunity so why not think about the new beginning? Often a better situation will come along, one you never would have found had you not been disrupted in the old. I wish for you this to happen... good things to come.
Pick yourself up as best you can, even though you aren't feeling like it. You're no less a person for not having a job now. Make it your 40 hour a week job to LOOK for one.

That way you can help ward off the depression that is so common with continued lack of activity.
I don't mean to minimize what you are going through, and all the "what ifs" that can be thought.

I just want you to know we have all been there, know what it means, and the only way to get over it is through it. (((hugs)))
I'm so glad you have such a great T! I wouldn't be alive without mine.