Things have not been going the greatest ive been really depressed in February my grandfather died and my fiance was put back in jail, Well since all that has happened i have lost my apartment and now am bouncing between my friends house and my grandparents because of now having anywheres to go, Tuesday my Fiance got out of jail but its now thursday and i honestly feel like nothing matters and i feel like my family hates me, We have been searching for an apartment or a place to live and by we i mean My mom,sister and I, But even thats not helping because my mom is the only one who is working i cant seen to find a reliable job no matter how hard i try tomarrow i go back again to the temp agency who is starting to get on my nerves because they keep screwing me over because they are advertising postions available but not calling me back, I feel like my life is going down hill and im only 19 years old.
I just don't know what to do because I am trying to plan a wedding, Help my mom with funeral arraingments for my grandfather, Trying to find a job and Trying to help find a place to live. Less than a month ago i was sent to Emergency Psyciatric at the hospital because i was having suicidal thoughts and i didnt want to be here, I am just trying to understand what to do talking to people doesnt help me because of my anxiety but my depression is just getting alot worse. My family doesnt realize i need the help and support but i know my mom needs the help and support to because of the child support battle for my sister, I feel like things just dont want to go right for me or my family can someone give me some advice please