I feel terrible all the time and it takes me hours to get out of bed even though i cant sleep either. I have been self harming daily and i cant stop thinking about ending it all i do have a plan and i am thinking about a date but havent decided on one yet. I am having panic attacks all the time and i am trying so hard but not for me i am only trying so that other people feel good but i dont know what i want. I really dont know what to do.