i lost my virginity with a hoe that i didn't know she was.then felt like my life was a joke including sex. i was to addicted to her with sex.

now i don't know how to have sex or get girls.

during the time i had sex i wasn't passionate,persuasive etc NONE OF THAT. just ....nothing...

i wanted to ask what is normal sex? is it kinda like pornography? ive never had an total experience.

also which leads me to believe im might be a loser.

some advice will be great. thnks for your time.