Yeah, it's the sensory stimulation. I'm very, very sensitive to it. I sleep under a 22 lb blanket and right now (and for the last few months I want to be under it all the time. I'm actually forcing myself to sit on the couch part of the day because the bedroom all the time isn't good. I'm very hypersensitive especially when manic and being out of my safe cocoon of a home is too much. Today I just went to the drugstore, out of eat at a fairly calm place and to one store.

I think my hormones must be doing a little dance as well since I had my first hot flash in so many months I can't remember the last one while I was out and hormones are always a mania trigger for me. Menopause has been a great blessing with my cycling slowing down. But when the hormones play games I pay for it. It's just getting further and further apart.

And I missed a med (gabapentin) for a few days and that threw me. It's not supposed to be one that does a lot but I have now learned it does more than I think.

Mania is just not a pretty thing. And I'm scared that it's getting worse. One problem we had was that I was getting a better but still dealing with it and in June I always get manic. So this could be the meds, hormones, random cycling or mania imposed on mania. And that one I can't bear to think about.