hopefully this is the right place to put this. i need help really bad. i don't know where to start, but i found this forum so i'm hoping somebody has something for me. i'm so lost. i'm about as certain as i can be that i have adhd. it hasn't been diagnosed, which is kind of my problem. i think my next step is to get some kind of medication so that i can get my life back on track. or maybe somebody has another idea besides medication. i'm open to ideas.

my family doesn't understand me... or even try to. they dismiss it as depression. i don't think they even get what depression is. they end up leaving me to myself assuming it'll work itself out or i'm just to weird to deal with. i've asked them for help so many times. i feel like they abandoned me because they don't get what i'm going through or try to even understand what it's like. a girlfriend called it an excuse. she too never took time to understand me. it's like the more i try to explain to people what i'm going through, the worse it gets as far as their understanding. i don't feel like people really listen to what i'm saying. i feel like i go through so much effort to explain what it's like for me and i end up feeling like i'm not heard. with my family, i know they are not listening. they will make comments that contradict what i tell them. like i said, it's like they pigeon hole me into what they think i'm going through. my brother called my daughters mom and told her so many things that never even happened. or he generalized things i've said to him and embellished other parts. long story short, he made me sound crazy and my daughter got taken away. i don't want to write a big sob story. just venting i guess and giving some background. i don't know what to say. i'm stressed beyond belief. my car was stolen and i can't go to work anymore. i'm out of money. my girlfriend doesn't talk to me. my daughters mom wants to take my daughter away completely. i'm a great dad too. i'm really proud of how i'm doing as a dad. i'm so confused as to how this can happen to somebody. but it is and i can't seem to get out of the hole i'm in. i'm overwhelmed to say the least. this is the condensed version of what's going on. i don't want to make this too long. i am desperate for help.

i live in tucson arizona and i don't have money to see a doctor. i don't have medical insurance. are there free clinics? is that a real thing? i just want to try medication for adhd. i feel like i need to. i've taken online tests for adhd and i score really really high. or it recommends that i see a doctor. it's kind of like the idea of knowing the whole time what's wrong with you. i can't get my crap together ever to do something about it. this post is as far as i've gotten. hopefully this makes sense. thanks for taking the time to read this. i really appreciate it.