The way cyclothymia affects me is a little different. Seems like clock work that I start feeling like maybe there isn't anything wrong with me then all of the sudden about every two months I switch. Things start to look and seem unreal almost surreal as In scenery looks like oil paintings and I'm suddenly witty/fast thinker/funny. I want to be out more and being an introvert by nature this is a weird one because I actually crave other people's company. Most of my friends leave me alone for the most part unless I call them or they need to speak so when this happens I logically remember why they aren't flocking at my door step but it saddens me they aren't and that is when the phone calls start to happen or I go there. Also during this time I also see a lot of coincidences but thru therapy I've learned not to give them much significance. Before therapy I'd start to get very paranoid and checking my house for recording devices.

After all those fun and games, incessive socializing, obsessive goals to create and sell, spending money on my hobbies, like clock work, I start to lay in bed sleeping on and off all day and night. Not taking phone calls, hating myself and creating drama in my head about others and why I should cut them out of my life ect I become depressed. Then come to suicidal thoughts and impulsiveness on the negative side. Start meds or don't start meds.