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Originally Posted by boydisappearing
I am not the usual demographic for an osteoporosis case. I'm a 31 year old man. But I've had anorexia for more than 10 years, and I'm currently in day treatment. As part of treatment, they did a bone density scan. Today they told me I have osteoporosis. I've told myself not to google it until my doctor at least talks to me about it next week. I have been told I'll need to avoid certain physical activities and that I'll be referred to an osteoporosis clinic that will treat me, and that it's irreversible and lifelong. But that's all I know. In order to stay off google I told myself I'd at least post it here.
I'm still kind of shocked. I mean, I'm 31. That's so young for something so... I don't know. I guess it's my own fault.
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It's hard not to feel guilty about it, I have AN (I'm also about the same age as you) and am now dealing with a lot of the complications from the disease. I do feel guilty and like people should have no sympathy for me because, on the outside, it looks like 'I did this to myself'. There were times during my illness where I really, truly wanted to be sick (one of those deals where I wanted the pain I was feeling inside to match the outside) and I neglected many basic necessities to deprive myself.
I've recently been dealing with dental complications, I went to a dentist for the first time in 3-ish years and had 13 cavities, one of which needed a root canal! I left the dentist office crying on more than a few occasions because I always felt like it was my fault and I brought all this stupidness upon myself.
But like someone else mentioned, I didn't chose to have this illness ( . . . but I can choose to recover?? I'm not sure if I 100% buy this, as I've struggled for over 15 years and just want it out of my life) so don't blame yourself. Easier said than done, right?