I'm indescribable ! but I'm gonna give it a try ...

I'll start off describing my name: bbTofu, it derives from me being a vegan and my love to the Blues music and as you know the king of the blues, BB.King, also my name starts with the letter B, so.. yeah.

I'm 26 years old, second year BSW (Social work) student, and I both love&hate that I'm in this profession.
I grew up as a single child with a single mom, I'm single and always been single except up to 1 month relationships when I was a teenager.
I'm an Aries ! Everything that is happening, is happening big time, constantly boiling in high temperature (loving myself for this description).

Why I mention my Sun Sign ? I've learnt that all the different paths I got myself on are ways for exploring my inner-self, seeking something deeper, peeling layers to have a better understanding of myself, may it be learning psychology, going to India pursuing spirituality, accumulating memories and experiences, new hobbies, letting go.
Astrology interests me today a lot.

I'm vegan for 3 years now, been a vegan activist for a year except that in recent months I decreased my activism for my own well-being because it began to affect me very negatively, affecting my studies and ruining my relationships with Family and friends. I don't attend family holiday meals because of that.
Veganism is a really big change in my life, it changed a lot of my values, moral judgement and so on.

People referred themselves being introverts/extroverts, I wouldn't know what I am.
if I would take some Jungian online tests at different days, I'd get different results.

Usually, I'm extroverted guy. Being around people and also being dominant feels very natural to me. There are times where I hate being alone, but there is a reason I'm alone; sometimes I hate being around people, when I'm sad or bit depressed, I don't want to see people "What's the point of meeting him/her ? it's pointless".

I love playing guitar, I'm a self-study and this is a big achievement for me as this is probably one of the only things I've "finished" in my life and didn't stop when I got bit hard.

I love the nature, I love the earth, I love animals (I have a lovely friend Golden Retriever). I hate insects, I'm terrified by them. I have arachnophobia despite grandiose trials (that failed) of facing this fear in India.

I love movies and tv shows, I'm easily touched, I'm a crybaby when I'm watching dramas alone. I fall in love too easily, and I love that ! I don't fall into any girl but once I meet a girl that seems like the girl for me, omg!
Although, I'm very unsuccessful when it comes to girls. I'm very inhibited, low confidence, always over-thinking because of my fears that are probably rooted deep inside my childhood experiences or whatever.
I think I crave intimacy, with everything that I come in touch with and that ignites me and interests me (not necessarily sexually); nature, music, friends, girls(romance) etc.

I'm often misunderstood by people because they get to see one-part of me and when they get to see other parts of me, they're getting confused haha. Sometimes I'm all laid back, chilly, and sometimes I'm like "LETSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS GO!@#()U*As)du"

People also often say I undervalue myself.

I hate people saying "it'll be okay", "we all got moods", "You should have.."
although I know that what lays beneath the saying is they're able to contain anything out of the 'OKAY' boundaries.

I almost always hate hearing "you should have done that like this..." - unless I really see this advice (i.e in practicum/studies/guitar learning).

I hate duties and boundaries, but I've learnt that I need them because otherwise I'd get lost and not necessarily in a good way.

I'm super disorganized, often late to appointments, sometimes forget I have them,
but somehow I have this charmingly magic way to make people accept it and adore it as a part of what makes me 'ME' ~ otherwise I'd get fired and kicked out of all jobs and meetings etc...

I've never read a book from beginning to end in my life, I always read 1/2 of it and that's it.


Realizing how much I wrote ...
I guess I'm not all that indescribable uhhhh