It sounds like you've got alot going on. Sometimes I get the negative thoughts about people in public, too. Especially lately. (Thankfully not on the internet.) I don't have a way to block them. Until I read this post, I thought it meant that I am becoming a bad person. Now I know that I need to bring this up with my PDoc and T.

Sorry I didn't have any answers for you. Thanx for bringing this subject up. I hope you find some answers.